It hurts to forget

It hurts to forget

forgotten
forgot that sweet smile of yours
forgot what the air felt like around you… Yet I still shiver.
forgot what it was like not to give up on something truly important
forgot the feeling of being one with you for that very first time
I took a long walk to your house but I lost my way, I was not strong enough
forgive me

forgot your name today and it made me weak

Cyn - thia - Di-ay-nne - Car - La - Mya - Thy - Bea - Rose - Marie - Da - Ra - Melissa - Zia

what was it I lost so long ago?

It all hurts to say, I forgot the joy of breathing your name and hearing the air vibrating through my lungs when I called for you.

I convinced myself many times I have forgotten you touched me but my eyes are honest and they bleed tears of truth

forgot how I found myself in love with you but the pressure crushing the empty spaces of my heart makes me ache to find that which I have convinced myself was long gone, never to return

forgot the mixtures of the languages I speak
forgot the sweet accent you loved so much
forgot my country forgot my place of birth
forgot which flag I should wave for I am a man without a home or country
forgot the taste of the mangoes, the mountains, the sugarcane

forgot the time when I felt you as my good friend
forgot how it got to this point, but God don’t let it go away, I don’t wanna forget.

forgot who you are, or when you forgot me, when you forgot I ever touched your soul

forgot how to start a new, keeping the old memories of you, please don’t let me forget

forgot what it feels like to regret

somehow I did betray the best of my soul… YOU…
and I lost something precious but I can’t remember what… You and Me…
I have forgotten what triggered the betrayal before my love was crucified
I losing my best friend and I can’t remember if she ever loved me
enough to truly forgive me…
Am I waiting on a resurrection that may never come? You and I… to rise again
forgot I should not show weakness
forgot I should not show my heart when breaking
forgot a man is not suppose to cry
forgot how to try, I am dying and I feel this is truly the end
forgot how to pretend that I am a man and cannot hurt and cannot feel this deep sadness that fills me

I crossed the street with my head hung low and in the corner of my eye I thought I seen you stopped at the light

it turned green and forgot what I’ve seen
I had forgotten all hope as you drove away
forgot what the sight of you would bring to my soul
forgot how to speak, Di - AY - NE - CYN - MY - LA - MARIE - DA - RA - Zia
I have forgotten I’m a fool without a voice.

forgot the taste of you on my lips, forgot the slippery deep spaces and the soft, soft hugs around me.

forgot how it felt like to lose… losing my best friend
forgot where I went wrong or was I not strong enough to keep us alive…

forgot how it felt to see you crying, hush… hush… truly breaks my heart to hear you crying… crying…

crush me, crush me, that I deserve

you and me, we used to be together, every single day together, never a time apart for we connected in a strange way that kept us tied together always… a lost like this is too great even for a man trying to be brave. I would of gave all even to be without to my grave.

forgot I had nothing to give, forgot my only wealth was my heart could never buy your desires and needs

forgot how many years have past but I have forgotten how to turn off this hurt, I just can’t think of the good times

yesterday I could not remember what to live for
today I just forgot what to breathe for or why
forgot the moment when I felt you’re letting go…
forgot how long I fell when your hands left mines
I am falling into a very dark place and I am truly scared, but without you I want to hit the ground and end this madness

I wish to hit the earth hard enough to call this the end… I can see us dying… dying… dying…

I’m falling and forgot how long or which way is up, I’m begging, begging to hit bottom hard enough to die

forgotten you remind me of life and the joys love brings, you remind me of breathing and my mind hurts to remember the good times

these memories hurt, it hurts so damn bad…
I forgot what it felt like to be without pain
it hurts… it hurts to forget!

it hurts… to dream or not to dream… to forget most of all a nightmare to dream to nightmares starring a silly little contradiction named Esther.

let me forget… how much it hurts… it hurts to forget! remember-me-not!