Sunshine till Sunrise

Sunshine till Sunrise

Sunshine… till sunrise
I remember the times we spent together
And like my faith believed that although the sun would set at night…
My passion would burn deep inside you after a prayer of thankfulness
A lovely day has ended and faith knows the sun would rise again…
The sun went away to give us this private little moment…
This very moment in your arms
Giving me a chance to see your soft brown skin in a different light
You naked in moon light,
Changed my nightmares into something that I could endure
my my my - my my my -
While finding why God created horny…

Sunshine till sunrise

I deeply believed in the laws of ancient science
That the sun would rise again come morning
It made loving you easy, this belief made my heart fearless…
Some men would say it made me soft,
Yet I’ve never seen a thug hang out in a Caribbean paradise
And still act hard…
Your love was an everyday vacation
From the ghettos, chains, and prisons of my mind
To believe life is good again and again every time I touched you
And when girl you kissed me and made living real, I finally felt awake
I could never be too old to feel like a boy again… to be playful around you
There is something in my heart that makes the sunrise from your smile

Bright… happy… carefree sunshine till sunrise
Sunshine to not feel alone…
Sunrise to not feel the shadows over my skin while seating
In a dark room with triple locked doors…
You shine through all made me no longer live in fear…
Knowing for sure if love is indeed a house this very moment
I knew you had the key to let the wind inside…
Helping me take another breath of Joy
The joy of looking into your eyes and seeing someone who genuinely
Wanted to be seen by me made this world bearable.

Sunshine till Sunrise

That was yesterday… something went very wrong in the universe today
and the sun did not rise and I fear I will never see it again
I still wonder about you and daydream my nights away about having known you once…
I felt an angel… once.
I wonder each and everyday what growing up must have been like for you
Tonight I pray you find happiness
Understanding the reasons you came to earth was not to be my night and day
and I’m seeing now it wasn’t meant to be that way
I once told myself when and if this love ever sets… that I have lived!
and I would be grateful for those moments…
Late September… October… November… December…
and in remembering them I would go on… I thought that would be enough
Yet I did not know how sad the nights would get until I have now live this every night…
Missing you… wanting you near… If I knew January would take you away…
I would make it that we would never see a New Year again
and would share a calendar with a dozen Novembers
Thinking that tonight is November 2nd… A month since our first kiss…
I want to give you some love…
I want to give you some good, good loving…

Sunshine till Sunrise

I still find an intense attraction to know of you spiritually
Like a child’s first sight of light and wonders
What strange blurry blobs yell Pick-A-Boo!
Still a baby in a world full of strange monsters,
I cry in puzzlement, yet still curious to understand why am I here?
It is scary sometimes until you hear that familiar voice you heard before in echoes from the womb
I want to know my universe with you as its center…
I want to have good vibes flow through us and find a home in our world
You attract me like the Earth pulls the Moon in cycles from full to new
You can be my center, you can shape me, mold me…
Trust is love and I don’t fear to revolve around you
And that is the magic of women… that comfort… that love… that spellbinds!
I’m trying to tell you… you still keep me in orbit… you got me…

Sunshine till Sunrise

In the darkness I still try to learn more about you at this very moment
Exploring words and my emotions, feelings and in holding motionless to better understand why…
Why did the sunrise to shine my every desire only to have the darkness return when I reached out for them?
Now I find myself as a blind man walking in darkness
Going through the world only by touch
Trying to feel what I once saw during a once in a lifetime
Sunny day I once had with you.

Sunshine till Sunrise

Now without you to ease the pain from when I trip and fall,
Trying to find my way around in the Darkness…
I think about things that would amuse you and bring sunshine and sunrises
To your heart and your days
I think of how to change your mind and have your heart
Wanting my warmth as I want for yours…
During these endless nights I keep my eyes to the ground
Afraid to look onto the heavens and seeing stars again
Knowing I would curse the moment…
Knowing that what you wait for with the deepest need
and wants comes with a cruel prolonging of the hours…
hour after hour lengthen in duration to an extent
that the Earth stops to spin and time stands while mountains turn to shifting sands

Sunshine till Sunrise

I miss you so much at this very moment I could die
If it was not for my insomnia
Keeping me from my eternal sleep…
My nightmares have turned to life-mares…
Staying awake asking what is my life?
What is life without seeing my sunrise? The Earth, Wind, and Fire of my soul…
understanding who am I a gift to, where do I belong?
Not wanting this feeling of forever alone.
All the reasons… reasons that we love… reasons that we hate… and why?
That is the meaning of my day without hearing you…
What you have done with your Today’s… and in sharing… I live.
It is selfish to want LIFE? Is it selfish to want to live, your best life?
Trying so hard to understand the reasons, that your best life
is not in sharing it… with me.
Knowing the reasons you came to Earth was not to be my night and day.
Still understanding that… I can’t help wanting to be yours…
Is it selfish to yearn for LOVE?
Loving you that is the best life I could possibly live…
I still dream that we could shine together
From Sunshine till Sunrise